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Hi Guys,

I'm moving my blog to keishaksp.wordpress.com 

I will soon detach this journal from my domain name, keishaks.com and attach the wordpress journal.

Toodles to this blog...hello wordpress!

Back to Work

Hey, what's going down my bloggy? ...ermm... I'm talking to an inanimate object...!!


Today, I continued my schoolwork..boring as heck, huh, I actually  miss doing Psych. 

Anyhoo, saw the orthopaedic today.....the verdict?...see the neurologist at Pantai before he decides whether it's feasible to do the operation on my  arm. 

My opinion on him thus far is sorta 50/50. He seems like a nice guy but  I am skeptical because he is not cognizant of my paticular case.,.,,e.g. He said the tumor could turn malignant... sooooo wrong... hardly  ever if not EVER, nf  type 2 tumors are malignant... total bummer No. 1.

Secondly, the way he talked to me was as if I didn't have a clue about NF. AGAIN, so so wrong to do.. assume that I am not well versed in my  condition. 

And because the tumor involves nerves, I get this eerie  feeling that SJMC shouldn't be doing it, given their past record.  I am biased, yes, I can't help but be after what happen.

So what do I want to do? Go back to Chennai to see my  doctor, Sajan Hegde. I just  feel  I am going around to see too many doctors.. I need a centralized one... I'm just not comfortable having to explain myself over and over again.

What do I look for in a surgeon? 
1. Confidence
2. Optimism
3. Competency
4. Experience
5. One that looks me in the eye, not my mother or anyone else
6. One who accepts any  questions asked.... really  that's a toughy  in this country.
7. One who does not assume I am incapable of knowing anything about my  condition


So yeah, that's the criteria for me really,... not many  doctors in malaysia can satisfy  this criteria.,,sad...but very true.


On another note, I have finally kickstarted my  book along with YL, we're going to write a poem every  week, accompanied by  a brief explanatory note, expatiating about how we arrived at the poem. This week's theme: fear of taking on life.

The title of our repertoire of poems: Life Poetry...simple but straight to the point... as how it has always been with our poetry.

just so you know, you can't read them until they're published! hahaha..no posting it here!


And, I am gonna stop posting on my puppies by the way...Just kidding. I know you love em.

off to take Chanel for a brisk in the park!

Until tomorrow, xoxoK






 

Random blabber

I finished A.P. Psychology last week and I am relieved now that I only have three more subs to finish in two months, boy it's been a long time coming!

I had a good birthday but you know, life's not the same without Grandpa.

I went through the entire season of Brothers and Sisters season 2 in two days this week, I'm taking a week off by the way. The show  is amazing and what's pissing me off is I can't figure out this paticular song in episode 8, while Kevin and Scotty got it going...sheesh.... 

The pups open their eyes and Noah looks sooooooooooooooooo cute.... 

I got the form filled to change my name, I need to get my statutory declaration stamped by a commissioner of oaths somewhere before friday. 

I've been thinking about taking up Project Anthony Petrus with my Grandmother, what is this project one might ask? gathering up volunteers for saturday morning tuition at my grandfather's house to teach underprivileged kids. It's a fantastic way to honor my grandfather's legacy, don't yopu think?

Oh boi, why does everyone insist I write a book on poetry, the poems are inspired..like... i have to be in the zone to write it! Right now, inspiration is lacking ..lol... but I'll do it la.. i'll pile it up into a book.

I'm going to look into latin dancing around the hartamas area this weekend, price considered and all.. It'll be a good exercise and a good way for Tan to learn how to LEARN how to dance.

Should I or should I not go swimming on Friday, thinking, planning.

Oh yeah, need to open maybank account and close BSN account... OMGosh, everytime I wanna draw out money somewhere, there is no BSN atm in sight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope Tan does an expose on the health system of malaysia,,.. my grandfather and all impoverished people who can't afford private healthcare deserve JUSTICE.

Not like private healthcare is any better, God knows I've been screwed over by them.

Catered food sucks but who am i to complain, food is food.


okay thats all thats going on in my head,...right..now


so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee


awwwwwwwwwwwwww


not soo cute...cute la but not sooo..not like Noah






Name change

I've decided in honor of my late grandfather, Anthony Petrus, to change my name from Keisha Kelsey Somasundram to:

Keisha Kelsey Somasundram Petrus

Now to officially do it by changing my I.C. 

Boy, I can't wait to deal with Malaysian bureaucracy, LMAO!

P.S. Today is my birthday so happy birthday to me, 19 years and getting older.

P.S.S. Next year I am 20.

P.S,S. In ten 1/2 years, I'll be 30!

xoxo K

Change of mind

 I have decided to change my darling Hugo's name to..... Noah...it's more closer to my heart and I have always liked the sound of that name!

Here's some info about Noah:

Noah

Information about this name:

Meaning: Rest, comfort and peace

Famous Usage: The builder of the ark, who saved two of each of the world's animals

Screen Details: Actor Noah Wyle - the young medico played by John Carter on TV's E.R.


My little puppy Noah!

Ready for their close up

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It's been lots of work, but it's all worth it, these puppies mean so much to me and they're getting cuter everyday.

take a look:


This is A, the oldest & fattest one. She's a very unusual color.



This is B. She's an adorable honeybee isn't she? 



This is C. He is the blackest of the three blackies, he's such a grumpy pot.



This is D. She is such a cutie and a fatty too. She loves goat's milk.


This is E. He's another grump and bully.. for pushing his sisters away for Chanel's milk.

 


This is F. He's just a big bully,  boy I can see him becoming a ladies' man! Handsome bugger!



This is G. She is the smallest of the lot but she's so cute right?!?!



This is the pup I am gonna keep, apparently he's gonna grow up to be an orange roan, he's also the youngest  of them all, I've felt a strong connection to him from the start and he's attached to me too. He came out the  smallest pup but look at him now, chubby and healthy and I've already picked out his name, Hugo. Hugo because of the brand Hugo Boss, seems to fit  cause he's definitely gonna draw in the ladies later on, lol.  He's also named Hugo because it has a significant meaning, germanic root of "soul" and "intellect" which I think he is. My little Hugo, muah, I love you.


Chanel guarding her babies well.


Update: Proud momma of 8 PUPPIES

Where do I begin? My dear sweet Chanel has given birth to 8 beautiful cockerspaniels. And it was really, REALLY TIRING.

Firstly, I didn't sleep a wink last night. Chanel didn't let me as she was constantly pacing around the room!

The first pup, arrived around 9ish and it was utterly mind-blowing, I was freaking out because Chanel was not licking the birth sac off and by my research, if the sac is not licked off, the pup can suffocate. I admit I didn't help the situation because I was screaming for my mother and freaking out. Mind you, Chanel didn't even bite the umbilical cord of the first one. 

In my panic state I realized if I didn't do anything, the poor pup would die so with I calmed down, remembered from my previous readings on what to do and with my bare hands, I tore the sac off (it felt like goo) and with my mums help (finally) tied dental floss around the cord and cut it off. And there we go, puppy saved, thanks to the Zim Family for giving tips on how to handle new-borns.

The second one was a shocker as well, because the puppy was hanging from Chanel's vagina because she refused to push out the umbilical cord. After much coaxing, the yucky stuff came out and aunty Cecilia and I did the next order of business: tear the sac off and cut the umbilical cord off. 

The third one came out completely detached from the placenta... phew, easy catch!.. by this time, I was getting the hang of it. 

The fourth one was a bit of a struggle because again, Chanel did not push out the placenta. So Aunty Cecil and I detached the umbilical cord carefully while it was still hanging on her vajayjay.

The fifth and sixth ones came out beautifully and by this time, Chanel's maternal instincts kicked in and she began licking the sac off and eating the umbilical cord. 

So we thought that it was all over with six pups, after cleaning everything up, after my shower, we discovered that Chanel pushed out the seventh one.. really tiny white and black cocker.... ahh seven pups... does it end there... abolutely not.

At 5.00 p.m. after waking up from a nap, I discovered an 8th pup! White cocker.... Gosh, I feel blessed and yet, doomed with all the imminent work ahead.

I truly am exhausted and I can't imagine what Chanel's feeling but I get the feeling, she's relieved to get all that weight off her.

And here are the pictures: 


First one,  current name: A


Chanel with her puppies


Chanel nursing her pups


All 8 of em clustered up


Chanel nursing her 8 pups.

Ohh boii ..next couple of days gonna be tough!


Oh..my....Gosh

Here I am at 3.15 a.m. wide awake because my dear Chanel is keeping me awake....why? Because she's in labor. Dear God, help me.. I'm half dead right now... must stay awake... will keep you posted.

xoxo K 

Sub-Conscious Rebellion

Everytime I read a magazine or newspaper, or watch television, I come upon fad diets to get women to lose x amount of pounds in x amount of time and to be dead honest and succinct, I'm fucking exhausted of hearing and reading the same old bullshit. Society places pressure on women to look a certain way, and women in turn, subscribe to this notion that being "thin" is the way to acceptance and fulfillment. Again, what a load of bull!!


In my teenage years, I have seen diets traverse from Atkins Diet to South Beach Diet to Cabbage Soup Diet to Zone Diet, just to name a  few, all of which starve you of CARBS. And here is what it boils down to: all of them are temporary and some of them do not provide a balance in nutrition. What I mean by temporary is that once you give in to your body's need for food and yes CARBS, you put on all that weight you lost plus more, SAD TRUTH but true, I've experienced yo-yo dieting before, losing 8 kilos in two weeks and subsequently gaining back and adding a lot more. 

Conclusion: Your body was built to metabolize carbs, so eat them dammit... they aint gonna kill you. 

It's sad to think so many young girls and even women derogate themselves to these diet fallacies.. I really can't blame them entirely though because it is a fact that the media and society place this pressure 'to look good' on them, and by human nature, we all conform. 

I was one of those girls but now as some of you have seen me, i am no longer one. I know it is a fact that if I was "lighter", it would be easier for my gait, I am aware that I need to lose weight for the sake of my spine but in reality, my mind is asunder, caught in a sub-conscious rebellion against the ideal brunt of this world and losing weight for the sake of my spine. I do want to lose weight, but this time, it's not for the purpose of "looking good" but for the purpose of being able to maintain a steady gait.

How have I gone about it...well.. I definitely  have altered my diet in the sense that I don't allow myself simple carbohydrates during the week (i'm a cookie, choc, sweet tooth) and I am trying to incorporate more veg on my plate. However on the weekends, screw this shit, I eat whatever I want, lol. 

In recent months, I have maintained a weekly 5-45 minute exercise program. I can't do much because of my spine so I do as much I can.

Have I lost a pound? I don't think so. Do I care? No. So long I know that  during the week I am eating right and exercising right, I am cool with my body, my image and my life!

I aint never going to go on a diet ever again. So people, back off. I am utterly sick of crude comments. It's not like I am judging you and your lifestyle. 

xoxo K

P.S. I thank NF for the fact that I have this sort of mentality. It is my personal belief that there is more to life than being thin and moreover, it is a fact that women and men come in all shapes and sizes so it's about bloody time you realize that eating right and exercising right is more important than looking like Paris Hilton.

Bye Bye



Okay, so, some of you may know that Mariah Carey is my favorite female singer of all time, but you know, her recent album, E=MC2,  thought, was produced just for commercial purposes, just to sell... Touch My Body is evident enough, I mean it's a catchy song with explicit lyrics but it's not what Mariah's about. Nothing beats classics like Hero, Vanishing. We Belong Together, Vision of Love, etc... But then her recent single, Bye Bye, struck a cord in me, it moved me so much because I was able to empathize and connect with this song... honestly, I started crying ... I miss my grandpa so much that it hurts me everyday... But the pain is easing slowly albeit I missing him will never go away...

Anyway, two thumbs up Mrs. Mariah Carey-Cannon. I luv ya and keep up the beautiful singing,,, you sound like an angel from heaven!



[Error: close lj-embed tag without open tag]This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye